It's hard to say how I would have been feeling today, one day before Spring Break, if I was still teaching in my classroom. Sure, I would be exhausted but I think it would be more of a physical exhaustion.
The exhaustion I'm feeling today is mostly mental. Honestly, I have gotten more sleep and exercise in the last three weeks than I have in months. So, physically I am feeling good.
My days are now filled with spurts of educational coaching. Yes, coaching...not teaching. And then I've been doing quite a bit of wondering. I'm wondering how this is all going to turn out? How is this school year going to turn out? What will I be asked to do, as a teacher, after Spring Break?
That last question was sort of answered in a 10-page email today. I'm sure it was meant to make me feel better, to make me feel like there's a plan going forward--but it didn't. I'm left with more questions, more things to wonder about and more mental exhaustion.
Fortunately, I know myself. I know I'm scrappy and in the end, I'll figure it all out. I also know that Spring Break is less than 24 hours away so for now, that's all I'm going to think about.
9 hours ago
Like you, I find it so odd how much I am looking forward to break this year. But we really need it. Here's hoping it will help.
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